Perna, I know you are right on here. Unfortunately I can't get out of this place and I am determined to need nothing from no one. This speaks to your comment about the patient physician relationship being a very intimate one. I am running for the hills. I am hurt and feel like I have been disapproved of, scolded, unloved, unbelieved. I know it relates to the past. I can tell you exactly how but I can't move past it.