Wow now I'm afraid to answer lol. I remember i started doing it intentionally on a regular basis when I was only about 4. Most of my childhood is a horrible blur but certain things are etched into my memory, this being one of them.
I always felt so dirty afterwards, even as I got older & did it. I would cry so hard & felt so much shame.
I found out a couple weeks ago that a teenager in my neighborhood did something to me when I was just a little girl. Idk how I don't remember it but my mom told me. That was the 1st in a line of people to harm me that way. The others I remember bc I was an older child/teenager.

Sorry for derailing the thread. I've never told anybody this & I guess I got carried away. It's been a terrible day so I'm about to overflow.