Dear Grieving Sister,
Perhaps a group support would help you in getting your feelings off your chest. It sounds like you have alot of anger
(justifable) that needs to be vented as well. Besides, because of your experience you have something to give
others whose grief might be newer. Giving to others will help you too and give your brothers death more meaning.
My sister Susan died not quite 3 months ago and in my
desparate search to come to terms with her life and death,
I came to this site this week. Susan was an abusive BPD
who hurt me terribly over this past 20 years. My sweet little sister turned into a cruel monster who hurt everyone that loved her. It's very hard to process her death with such
a turbulent history. It helps to talk about it. Keep posting
and you'll get all the support you need.
Best Wishes,
annie