Thanks, Perna. It is surprising what little I realized about my "patterns." I know this much...I read a lot about political violence and how societies justify it. I long for social justice. I loved the outdoors and did a lot of camping and hiking in my youth. I am very curious about other places and cultures. I like many genres of music, and enjoy solitude to contemplate. As for actual hobbies, I can't afford any materials to practice any except the occasional book to read. Life doesn't seem to be attainable without money and I don't have it. If there were any immediate goal, it would be to sell off or donate many of my things to downsize for future room boarding instead of full unit renting.