So I signed up for college in the beginning of the year and I'm closing in on the end of my first semester. I only took two classes, and they were condensed being as they were summer courses. When I first signed up, I was so excited and so motivated; I could hardly wait for classes to begin. Shortly after I signed up for classes, I found out I was pregnant. Now, with the baby, I'm excited and happy with the decisions I made. I'm now 20 weeks along and expecting a boy. =) But my motivation has been lacking more and more as I go on with my courses. I'm passing, but the work I'm handing in isn't if the caliber that I'm really proud of, even though my grades show Bs. I just had to sign up for next semester, and my confidence is at an all time low. Tomorrow, I have a presentation that I have to do, and they intimidate me in theory to begin with. But my flash drive got left in the lab last Monday, and my motivation is such that I didn't even try to set up my presentation. As if the worry of having a panic attack in front of my professor wasn't enough, I now have to just hope that she will allow me to finish my presentation during class, and then present it in the same day. I'm honestly debating if I even want to continue on next semester or just take the next two off. I'm going for social work, and my social anxieties are holding me back. I'm awaiting my OB/GYN and my pdoc to agree on a medication I can take while pregnant, but I've been without for 20 weeks now, only taking my prenatal vitamins. I'm also physically a bit of an "outcast"; I love my tattoos, crazy hair colors, and piercings. I really just want to get into tattooing and try to make a living. But at the same time, I have a baby to consider, and his future to think about as well. So I'm very conflicted right now, and every time I try to motivate myself something goes wrong, and I fall even further back. Things just are not looking up for me, and I'm not sure how to fix my lack of motivation...