Ugh, it's been a while. Things have been crazy with the pregnancy and classes. I'm still waiting to be put on a safe medication. I'm pushing myself through my last weeks of class, totally not as motivated as I thought I would be. Found out that I'm having a boy, but the babies father is turning out to be unintentionally deadbeat. He's not even thinking about himself, let alone his kids. I'm about to tell him that if he wants to be in his sons life, he has to prove it. I'm done going out of my way for him to be included. And I don't want my son to have his male influence be a freeloader. But, I do have an amazing new girlfriend who is crazy excited about the baby (she's been more involved than the father). So everything is crazy and all over the place, and I just don't know how to feel. All I know is that my depression is starting to take over, and that really scares me... =/