i have just been switched from lamictal to topamax, and before that i was on celexa, and before that buspar.

i am turning 21 in september, and the past year ive watched all my friends turn 21, and also watch them leave me at home on the weekends so they can go to bars. i really want to have a good 21st birthday, im not saying i want to get blackout drunk and vomit everywhere, but yeah, i do want to go out and drink because you only turn 21 once.

i guess i am just wondering how to handle this situation, because i dont want to have a problem with my meds. obviously i understand you shouldnt mix alcohol with medication. i am not here for a lecture, i just want some people's perspectives on how to go about this.

i dont want to miss out, its my last year of college, and i dont want to look back and realize i didnt have as much fun as i could have. and please dont give me the "you can have fun without alcohol." i know i can. ive been doing that for a long time now. i want to be able to go out, have some drinks, be responsible, and have some fun, in a safe way.

so i guess bottom line, how will alcohol affect me with this medication, or your experiences with another, or how to somehow deal with this. i am currently on 50 mg of topamax.

thank you in advance, i really appreciate it, as i really want to have something that isnt defined by my psychiatric disorder... because so much of my life is.