((( Healed ))) - I can imagine how much got stirred up for you and how next Tuesday feels like an eternity. I hope you're able to reach out to T to see if he can fit you in some time this week - or that you can apply some strategies to get through the time.

((( Wiki ))) - Sorry you're feeling so nervous. I hope it doesn't translate to a bad day and that you can turn those feelings around somehow.

((( Lola ))) - YIKES! That's a huge cable bill! When TV's went from analog to digital, that's when we stopped watching regular TV. I've never paid a cable bill ever....and I constantly get offers for $89.99/month for cable/phone/internet combo. Sometimes even $79.99. My daughter sooooo wants us to do it, but I can't afford to add another bill right now. So, we have no TV, no home phone and I use my neighbor's wifi. We live a sheltered life, LOL.

((( BPA ))) - I'm sorry you feel triggered by T not being there. I can relate to those feelings. What I try to do is separate the history that I have with T that shows me that he is caring and trustworthy, from the feelings that I'm having which may be based solely on my perception, stirred up by things that happened in the past. Last week, there was a scheduling mix-up, and my session was "given away" to someone else - after me not seeing T since the end of June. I felt devastated, let down, unimportant, insignificant, etc. Even though I still feel angry and upset about it, I know that T was not intentionally trying to harm me. I wonder if your T had other obligations and wasn't at the office. He'd still be booked and unavailable, just not with clients.