My mother died 4 years ago, too, and I still miss her. Sometimes the pain of losing her gets really bad and I have to have a crying spell. Sometimes I'll see something she would like and want to call her. Mostly, I try to remember the good times before she got sick. The times that we enjoyed together. It's all part to the grief process I think. She was my best friend as well as my mother. I miss her terribly. So I wish you the best. Just wanted you to know you are not alone.
Gayle