Thanks Gayle . It does feel like I have really bad luck of the pick. My friend that joined here and had me join with him has been helping me a lot the past couple months. I've been to counselors and I'm not sure I guess talking to him didn't help much, I would get all nervous and wouldn't be able to say anything. When I talk to my friend he gets me to feel better. About the cutting I have promised 2 of my friends that I would never do it again and to talk to them if I ever feel the urge to.