Mojo, AAAAA, ... I think you have both nailed it. Over the course of conversations over the past few days, it's become more apparent how she has really felt about me over the past 5 years... even despite the way she was treated, pampered, etc. While I have my own anger issues over the fact that this was hidden from ME for so long ... and that I wish she would have done more to try to resolve the conflict in her mind, we are both going to have to move forward now with each other fulfilling different roles.

At this point, there is nothing left to work for, she has made that very clear in a way that I cannot possibly confuse the words. I've pretty much accepted my fate weeks ago but as the custody discussions, and living arrangement discussions are all starting, I am dreading the process. We're waiting for a few things to settle, get some ducks in a row, start making arrangements, etc. before we break the news to our children. But I suspect that won't be too much longer.

Wish me luck guys, pray for my children. I thank all of you who have tried to help me, who have supported me (and helped me realize that the world can be tolerant of crossdressers), and provided great insight.