Good Morning, each year I have a repeat of the last--->a re-enactment or so it seems of the date that it was explained to me that what my father did to me was called "molestation." Since this date coincides with the holidays, I have one heck of a time living in the month of December. Although I have a therapist, psychiatrist, meds and friends, I still can't kick the heck out of the ensuing pain of the past. It just comes on full force. And when most everyone goes home to family for Christmas, I don't and end up having to make up a white lie. Why does the pain not ease each December? The answer is not to build my own family, it is just not the same. I would like one or two blood relatives! Any suggestions would be appreciated. Thank you so much.