Nessa, if somebody posted this message on the forum, what would you suggest? Sometimes we don't afford ourselves the same kindness and concern that we afford to others. Please mind yourself and contact the doctor. Make those who love you and care for you aware of how you are feeling too. I hope that you will get the help that you need. Remember that you are worth it!
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Originally Posted by Nessa213
So I have an appointment next week. Next week to the day actually.
Since Thursday I feel like I've been losing it. Like... legit.
I'm at work right now. Decided taking two days off in a row wasn't really... smart. So. I'm trying.
But I really can't work. My hands are SO shaky right now and my heart is actually racing out of my chest. I'm trying to calm down and every once in a while I'll be good. I mean it's not a constant thing by any means. It's kind of like... waves. If that makes sense.
The real trouble is, if I told him what I was actually thinking... or what I actually did... I think I'd go to the hospital. And I really trying to fight it. Fight it to tears really. If they ask me that "Are you a danger to yourself or others"... well I can't really say "no" to that if we're being perfectly honest.
God this took a long time to type out it seems.
So... would you wait a week... maybe it'll go away? Maybe? His office is closed today anyway. And I feel kind of lame anyway since it IS such an on-again-off-again type of thing.
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