Try "In Touch Daily" again, Speed, or "Hazeldon.org" for daily uplifting thoughts.

When you shower tonight before going out for dinner, picture in your mind all
the negativity of the day just washing off you as the suds and hot water drain from your body.
That has unusual cleansing effects for the psyche for some.

I know it's hard, and I know you're in pain. Prayer going up now for a peaceful
evening, restful sleep, and a strengthening of your faith each day.