I;ve been taking Mirtazipine for 2 yrs now...couldn't really tell if it was beneficial or not as my life was pretty well messed up at this point...

I've been in therapy for just over 2 yrs now...finally begining to see the light at the end of a very dark tunnel and risked cutting my meds by half...

That was 2wks ago...I've found in those 2 wks that I have a more sharper sense of emotions...when the darker emotions set in I found myself also experiencing a realness about them that wasn't as bad as the drug induced blandness...if that makes sense...

My mind seems sharper...but my sleep has gone haywire...which is off slight concern to me..I;'ve also found myself tearful at times...but this hasn't nesscarily been a bad thing...

Then this last night I took my old dosage again...maybe unconsiously I'm still unsure if how I am with half the dosage is "safe"?...but immediately the flatness of emotion set in...I could tell the difference...the rawness was taken away...but the rawness is somehow more alive.....

I wondered if anyone else has an experience like this?...I think I will carry on again with the half dosage and see how it goes....also I feel being so numbed out just instills the message that "I am needing this pills"...makes me feel pretty helpless...unable to get in their mentally and pick myself up...with the rawness It felt more empowering...maybe this is all mind trick I am playing on myself..?