Hey!

I think it's great that you are trying to find a way to say the things you need to say! It shows your strength and maturity.

When I've had trouble saying the things I wanted in sessions, these are a few things I've tried:
- sending an email ahead of time with important points (if that kind of contact is allowed)
- writing things down in a letter and giving it to T at the beginning of a session
- if I thought tone was important, making an audio recording of the things I wanted to say, and then playing it for T in session
- if it was something that I couldn't plan ahead of time, I found not looking at T was helpful (I spent a lot of my difficult sessions talking while looking out of the window, or I starting bringing something to do during the sessions (knitting etc.) so I could look at what I was doing while I was talking, and not have to look at T)

Hope some of those help. Best of luck!

Ness