I met with T today as I haven't been feeling well. A big part of what has been bothering me is the thought of leaving therapy. I've made a lot of headway and a part of me feels like I'm done with therapy for now (at least in the short term until I start school in the fall). I told T how I was feeling anxious about it/afraid and she told me it's something I need to think about (every other week or one week a month? etc... what ever I wish).

I also told her about a dream I had and she asked me if I was trying to conceal something In a way yes I am concealing something.... from her. What I was thinking but didn't say.... I wish we could be friends. She has been such a positive part of my life and while she's not the only person in my life she's one of if not the most important person I've ever met in my life. I'm afraid of my feelings. I'm ashamed of my feelings. I'm embarrassed by my feelings. Feelings can hurt.

She asked that I think about it and send some thoughts in an email if I like. My next appt is on Tuesday and then I don't see her for two weeks.

How honest would you be?