I've been in a mild (?) depression, and I've done everything I am supposed to: vitamins, minerals, herbs, breathing, meditation, sunlight, relaxation exercises. I've been able to 'keep my head above water.' But I had a horrible night last night -- bad dreams -- kept waking up -- and I think I had a panic attack. I woke up feeling like if I got out from underneath the covers, I would die.

I'm starting a job with a lot of responsibility in the next week or two (I take my employment physical Tuesday). Is this anxiety due to starting a new job??

I am a 58-year-old woman, who retired (early) last February. Moved out of state (about 1/3 across country). Bought a fixer-upper house, knowing that I would have to go back to work to fix it up. No problem. Except the holidays started coming, I got homesick, and I really don't know many people here. I think I've just bit off more than I can chew in too-short a time.

But I am REALLY scared this morning. I've been Clinically Depressed before. About 15 years ago. I don't want to go back into it.

Everyone seems to nice here. You're so encouraging. Thank you for letting me be here.