CKA87 - There is hope! I got over the hump you described. I admit, I felt bad, and huge, and miserable for a while.

I never gained weight (tho if you were severely underweight, your experience may be different) and eventually I was able to eat a relatively normal amount without wanting to restrict/over-exercise/purge. Now I eat when I'm hungry and don't when I'm not. I still check in with my nutritionist every 6 months to make sure I'm eating healthily. I'm not adventurous in my eating, I concede that. I eat safe foods, but I eat them without distress. My thoughts have normalized and I don't hate my body anymore. I see my flaws, but dont obsess over them. I just camoflauge them as best I can and live my life. (I even wore shorts this weekend. First time in 10 years!)

I hope you hang in there and see progress real soon!