My first time in T (125 years ago )... I went 3x a week and was so dissociated I could only stare at her. She was young and terrified of me. I later learned she had wanted to terminate me, but since I never heard what she was saying to me, she might have told me not to come back and I just ignored it. I never "got around" to telling her about CSA though looking back, I'm sure she assumed it was part of my background.

I went back to see her 10 years later (only 115 years ago) and after 8 months stabilizing me, we were finally able to address the huge elephant known as CSA.

Third (current) T took about 6 months, and I've made tons of progress with her.

My point is you're ready when you're ready and not a moment before.

I wish you healing and health
Bub