My boyfriend of almost 2 ears ended things a few days ago suddenly... We are in college and live in Chicago. I really don't know what to do. My mom lives in Florida with my grandparents, my father killed himself when I was 5. When I graduated high school I moved from Chicago to Florida with my mom but decided to move home to Chicago after 5 months. I have aunts and uncles here. I met my boyfriend when I moved back and he has really been there for me... I didn't make a lot of friends easily when I came to my college in Chicago so I either hung out with high school friends or my boyfriend. I am so miserable. I don't talk to my roommates and I just feel so alone. I was already depressed and not liking my school a lot, my boyfriend being around made me happy. Now he just randomly wants to be indapendant and I am devastated. I can't even leave my school bc I am in so much debt if I dot get a degree ill never pay it off. I don't even want to be alive anymore. When I had thoughts of suicide I would remind myself that my bf would be miserable, but seeing as he doesn't want to be with me, I feel like nothing is holding me back.