It is sometimes difficult to open up to the ones we care most about for a great fear of abandonment and shame. How do you explain to your loved ones what you are experiencing within? They don't understand. IMO, I have to work through this with a T, and when I am comfortable enough, I will branch out, and I have a little just today with someone from my past. It was reflexive and she was very supportive. I also called a friend, who was the same. However, if he starts to push separation on me, I will completely become unstabilized. I am learning that my subconscious has a plan, and my if my T is interested in me finding extra connections, I am hoping he will also listen to my subconscious's plan. It is the part of me that has been tasked the job to find a secure attachment, one that I can mirror others relationships after. My SUBCONSCIOUS MIND has just has taken a hell of a lot more time than I would have wished, but it is a wise part of me to be sure, and it would have done so earlier if given the opportunity!