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Originally Posted by EffBee
I am terrified to see the email she writes back. I don't know what it will say but I'm scare to read it. I know my mom loves me, but I don't know what will happen if I hear it from her. Why am I making such a big deal out of this? I think this is a big problem for me! I almost regret sending it because I don't know how to deal with the positivity it could hold.
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Deep down you may believe she doesn't love you or you did something wrong. My male parental unit (not my dad...but I thought he was for years...long story...so we go with male parental unit) showed me affection once...once in 26 years. The night he left my mom he told me he loved me. I remember saying thank you and making a joke about bacon. I also remember fearing how to respond and what that would do to our relationship. What I learned is that he just didn't know how to tell me or show me because I receive love differently than he gave it. I like the words. He showed it by action: Working hard, making sure I had what I needed, etc.
Maybe she thought you were older and didn't need the vocal affirmation but could see her actions?
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