not sure which forums this would go in as it isn't socially uplifting or fun, and could fit a number of disease/disorder forums but as it touches on a whole bunch of all general it is.

only so much can be taken before one cracks. the unrelenting stressors of everyday life for most is hard but for those of us with compromised coping skills or health issues including disease/disorder of the mental kind these stressors can literally take us under.

day by day, one step at a time, one moment at a time, focus on now not later or yesterday...just now......all these things are known but of little comfort when this cracked by ongoing situations.

anxiety in mornings was many week addition to usual sx of dxs. has returned. lack of therapy due to practical matters of finances and location hasn't helped in the feeling supported dept.

it is dangerous driving when all these thoughts can bubble up to the surface and the dissociation can start. dog is vigilant but recently so much is going on that even dog cannot keep up with this twitchiness of switchiness.

needed to ramble on out. didn't want to e-mail mass or PM many with copy thus this outpouring of inner__zh

thx for space. at least we know we'll survive, we'll get through. we'll continue to battle the denial and the challenges that we usually face in addition to these recent stressors----which will eventually end.

we can do this and we will. doesn't mean we have to be chipper about it or like the whole process. just keep plugging away and day by day it gets worked on. everyone has their burdens and woes. pain is pain. nobody's lot is worse or better. we all suffer and survive as best we can.

OH btw......when does channukah start? calendar on fridge doesn't have holidays and we're woefully behind in observation. can anyone help?? thx.