You are very kind to reply. I do find she is difficult to parent as a gifted little girl. I love her more than life. I hate to fail her, to not know and do the most perfect thing in every moment. People say I'm a good mom too- I think maybe you and I do have a lot in common. I have told my therapist every single worst moment I can think of, she says I'm a good mom in a difficult situation.

I just do not know.

All I know is I try and try and try. There is a lot more to me as a parent than those worst moments. I have created an otherwise safe, stable, fun, structured life for her I think. I try so very hard.

But you know how it feels, maybe, to feel like a failure, 1000 times over. I will have to read and reread your post, when I'm not so busy and tired. Thanks for sharing, so much.