Thank you for listening. Today is a better day. The dinner at my step moms was actually enjoyable. I just got a shower and threw on some sweats, but I made it. It was good food, good people, sharing some old memories with a few laughs. We are going to do it once a month switching off who makes the main entree.

I think I found a therapist who specializes in Grief and Loss. She is a Psychologist and is 5 minutes away. I have Blue Cross Personal Choice. She isn't Personal Choice but is considered out of network. This means I get reimbursed for 70% of her fee now that I have met my deductible.

I am waiting for her to call back today to finalize things and make my first appointment. This is giving me some much needed hope.

I still feel physically exhausted. I haven't seen my GP in awhile. I should make an appointment with him to make sure nothing physical is going on.

I have all the stuff to start the Chris Powell 12 week weight challenge. But I think I want to get started with the therapist first and see my GP first.
Once I start I want to stay on it, not have really bad days and go back to old habits.

It is amazing what one day can do. That is why suicide is so tragic. What is the saying ' a permanent solution to a temporary situation'.

Love you all