I'd think about friendship; why I have the friends I do. Are they always "such a positive part of my life"? I'd think about feelings, how I don't control them, they just show up like my thoughts. How other people cannot feel my feelings anymore than they can think, hear, or read my thoughts. I'd think about if I were afraid, ashamed, embarrassed by my thoughts and if I let my thoughts hurt me and how thoughts and feelings worked, what their purposes were and how I could use them now to help me.

Whatever I learned form thinking about it all after a day or two, I might write an email to T or I might just keep thinking and watching my feelings flicker like firelight :-) and think about how I would try to talk to T on Tuesday.