Only been in DBT for two weeks and I'm already back to giving up. This is so hard. I hate this illness. It's obvious to me that medication is not going to help the depressive side. It will only put me in hell mixed states. I know I've only tried two but none helped last time either. I'm about to drop both and just go it alone. I already self harmed and now I have for figure out how to tell my husband before he sees himself. And my baby now points out mommy's boo boos. It's heartbreaking. I can't do this the rest of my life. It's terrible. In DBT they had me find a life worth living goal but who cares when my life is not worth living with this disease?

DBT only works if you work it and I'm having a hard time finding motivation to work it.

So down. But I have to go to seeking safety group so I'll end here.