This is really hard. And you deserve a lot of credit for trying. Not everything works or is going to work, but when you find what works for you there is a good chance that you will feel much better and not just for one day but for many many days in a row.

I don't know you, but I know you have some great qualities and it is worth giving yourself a chance to be the person you remember being, the person you are and the person you can be.

Good luck! You have my support and I am sure the support of everyone here.