When my T would travel to her home country on the other side of the world from me for 4-8+ weeks each year, I'd pretend I was on sabbatical

The last year we were in therapy, we had already set our termination date and she was away for more than 3 months that year, November to February or March; basically all of winter (she had some condition she'd gotten as a child and if she so much as caught a cold, it could kill her). Since it was toward the end of therapy (we ended, end of June or July, I actually forget which!) I decided with all that time she was gone, I was going to write her a book about my life and therapy and how it had influenced my life in the long period of time we'd seen each other. I did not write that book then but I have since written a 50,000 word novel with
National Novel Writing Month that combined my actual background/life mid-20's with my idealized life, what I would have liked for it to have been like based on what had actually happened and been my experience, hopes and desires through my mid-50's.
Think up a grand project? What do you really ultimately want from therapy and/or life? What if you were to pretend you could just reach out and get it? That you could just believe, "I can't wait until I meet the wo/man that is going to be my husband/wife in the next five years" and then figure out what you would like to be like for that relationship? "I can't wait until I can afford a home of my own" and figure out what you would like that home to be like and start saving for it and figuring out how to get it, etc. "I can't wait until I am my best friend" and picture telling your T about that experience when he gets back?