I have been dating a girl on and off for about 3 1/2 years. im 26 and shes 25, In these years she's probably dumped me 34 times, it's always over something stupid or I fibbed about something small- you name it. We've have grown to not respect one another and towards the end it just got so bad there wasent much making sense of it, if i wasent trusting her she wasent trusting me- always over BS.

She dumped me for good 4th of July again because apparently I haven't changed and throwing a BBQ with my friends for the holiday was "immature".

Now to my defense I've always tried my best to please her, I always came crawling back like a dog and always apologized, even when she'd do things wrong and flip it on Me. She controlled me.... Towards the end shed tell me that she apologized for being with me so long because she never trusted me and never really forgave me. Now I've never cheated on her, I have lied about stupid things cause I didn't want her to get mad but I'd always come clean and always be there.

After so many heartbreaks and being told I don't know anything about love...and being ridiculed, demasculated and disrespected I've finally decided I have to move on....but the draw she has on me always has me there at her beck and call.

She's not talking to me now but I wonder if I were to actually try and move on and leave her alone for real, not get back after 2-5-or even 9 months......will she respect me? If I changed my life and started caring more about myself would she notice?

I ultimately wonder if time apart from a rocky relationship, can help build a peaceful one in the future, id like to one day be able to reach out to her again and speak to her....or be her friend whatever it may be. I am friends with a Ex but it took us 3 years to talk again- but we never had this many problems- what do you all think?