Most of my nightmares have involved me drowning or falling, but recently I dreamed about a friend that died of cancer earlier this year... In the dream there were doctors, and the doctors told me that she tested negative for cancer. She was going to be okay. The doctors were two friends that killed themselves last year, and my friend with cancer came out with my other friend that was hit by a car. I feel like I was just moving on from this, and to see them alive again in my head screwed everything up.

This isn't the first time this has happened either. When my first best friend killed herself, I kept seeing her standing in my room in the middle of the night. She would be covered in blood and smiling at me, and then she would disappear. I didn't get a decent sleep for a long time.

Also, even though it's been so long, I send them emails sometimes or wait for them where we used to hang out... I don't even know why I do that, but I can't let go. Other than that, I completely avoid any situation that would remind me of them. I don't even want to think about them but I have these dreams... Apparently it's PTSD? How am I supposed to handle this?