I'm so sorry for what they did to u, and people allowing it & blaming u who should've been protecting u. I only recently able to talk/write about a sexual assault from when I was a young teen. It was the stories in the world news coming out about girls who've sui'd after rapes. Finally they're starting to convict the boys who do this. If it happened to me and I never spoke up, I think about how many more there are out there like me. Abused, afraid to speak out because the judgment like it was my fault for kissing him. I got pretty obsessed with following the news stories and joining groups to help stop it, the stigma & judgment.

I agree with MM - 2 hours a day is plenty. The other hours need to be about other things or it will consume your life and get in the way of actually living your life. Unplugging is also good for a break.

Please try not to worry about saying too much on here. I get anxiety sometimes like I said too much, shared my secrets, now someone might use it to hurt me somehow... Those are our safety barriers. But we are anonymous mostly unless we really trust someone. So you should be able to feel safe here. And if anyone's mean to u we'll rip em a new one. And block them.
A child who's been assaulted is a victim of a crime. That's your part in it, that's ur only part in it. Period.