don't feel down. im in a similar position. my gf left when I made her my world. before we got together I was a real badass. drank and drugs constantly. I heated on almost everygirl I dated. I met her and continued using until I got on probation again(like 10 millionth time haha) after awhile I quit using and seeing my friends to get out of trouble all the time. so I had like no friends and I just made her my world now shes gone and I got nothing except maybe one friend? just remember lifes a dance, youll learn as you go. suicide is easy. since you came here I assuming youre not lazy. girl get on your hands and fight the pitpull like a dog. things will get better if you stick with it.