no more worries about posts today i wont be around much .heading out in a few hours to immerse myself in the center of a bunch of people i don't know .play the kind friendly I'm having a great time thing.that is until i breakdown again like yesterday morning. but hey I'm getting out not thinking etc... it's the right thing to do,Right T.. i wonder how much emotional stress i can put this body through before it breaks down. it will be fun to see. i think i have found a new form of self abuse.
run run run ,don't think.don't react.don't be human .and for god sake do not show emotion.