I've been in therapy for nine months now, and it has been a very rocky road. The first month was terrible, the following 3 months were amazing, and the past few months have been the worst of my life. I'm really growing tired of these feelings, and the therapeutic process in general. Are therapy is centered on letting go of thoughts and feelings with simple awareness. This seemed easy enough in the beginning, until I became aware of every single thought and feeling I was having. I believe too much awareness is draining, no? He kind of scared me when saying that we can take one thought and inflate it to the point were it becomes a phobia.

Also, I feel like we jump from one issue to the other, without complete closure, which has me feeling very unresolved. It makes me question why I even brought this past events into the present, if I am not going to heal from them. I asked him about this, and he says he believes in following the "flow", as in not pressuring anything into discussion, and allowing the mind to bring in what is important at the precise moment. I feel like this is true on some level, but is a bit of a distortion and not practical for someone who needs closure to move on, and get on with life.

I can't just quit therapy because of my emotional state, but I am begging to doubt the process, and lose faith.