Normal is such a relative term constantly subject to change.

It may take a while for you to define what average will be for you. Meds can wreak havoc on the body and mind when they are changed from one to another and therapy is a process. Who you are now may not be who you become in a month, a year, maybe two years down the road.

It may help to think of this as a process. You are a work in progress.

I understand the desire to have a "normal" or "baseline" as an anchor. Can you identify simple norms? For example-- Every day I am a parent, a spouse, an employee? Or--My daily norm is to get out of bed and take care of (fill in the blank)? Although these may not totally define who you are, they are like lighthouses illuminating the shore.

My hope for you is that as you continue down this road that you will be able to begin to identify and accept whatever your new normal looks like. In the meantime, explore, be curious, and be open to new definitions of who you are and who you can become.