I thought you were going to write that your writing here is like your speech; I kind of equate writing a lot or posting often with "fast" and a non-directive story (I don't get a sense of your wanting anything in particular from an response) as being "soft".

I enjoy reading your posts, Rainbow, they are diverse and give me many ideas and thoughts about myself. But, the number of posts sometimes feels a bit overwhelming to me, like I cannot keep up (fast?). Too, looking at this post, you tell a story of what your Ts are telling you and then give some observations of what you feel might be causing your actions but as a reader, I'm wondering, "What would she like from me, why is she telling me this?" (too soft in asking me for what you want).

I have seen in other posts of yours that they range over a broad area in responses and many of the responses get just a "thanks" or "no, not it" and others get a warmer, "yes, that's it" response but it feels hit or miss to me and I feel anxious that there is something I don't get or understand about how to respond to you. Rather than feel anxious, I chicken out and just don't respond sometimes.