I ask my T this all the time actually because I get paranoid that she doesn't believe me. When we talk about the abuse I endured, I get very stone faced and numb to it. I don't cry when I talk about it and I actually don't allow myself to cry almost ever. She said that even though I don't cry, it is very apparent to her that I am strongly emotionally effected by it. She also says that I have been conditioned not to cry as a kid because I didn't grow up in an environment where crying was acceptable.