MKAC.... I still have a hard time asking for things I need... or believing I deserve them... I was all hormonal this week (of course I didn't think to look at the calendar as it was happening) and I was reverting back to my mind reading and assuming he feels about me the way my core feelings are... which is so not good... and when I'm in my right mind I know he doesn't feel that way...

I feel like a lot of pressure has been removed if he can allow me to feel what I need to without allowing it to change his feelings or otherwise I can't have my feelings because then I am making him mad or angry or upset,...ughh...

I actually told him a big feeilng that I have about myself (or actually don't have) that I 've never even talked to a T about and he said he doesn't see me that way... which although nice I reminded him didn't really matter to me because its how I see me that matters...

Maybe someday I would be able to talk to a T about it...