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At first I saw his locum. she was nice and thought I had bipolar. then she left so I had to see him. ive only seen him twice for ten mins at each appointment. after my last app he sent a letter to my gp saying that I he thinks I have bpd. i have no elements of it, but it wasn't that so much that upset me, it was far more that his letter just contained a lot of stuff i had never said, and it to some extent feels like he's made stuff up to make it seem like bpd.
my gp said that some patients have trouble expressing themselves so the pdoc might interpret what you've said as meaning something else, so maybe this is what happened, but im not so sure
i told pdoc that i went to a meeting, where a man claimed to have fallen in love with me at first site. i found this strange and so declined his offer of a date. pdoc wrote "she has difficultly with relationships. she attended a meeting where she flirted innapropriately with several men"
how n earth did he get that from what i said?
i also told pdoc that i had shoplifted a couple of times over a two week period, but that i knew it was wrong and so was easily able to stop. i suggested that maybe this was due to a bipolar high? pdoc then wrote "she has difficulty controlling her impulses and has an addiction to shoplifting, and does so almost every day"
i didn't say this!!!
im not angry at all, i don't have any abandonment issues, ive told pdoc before that i have friends i go out with and am becoming a lot more social since getting help for my anxiety, and that im starting to enjoy life again. i told him i cope equally well alone or in a group and that i enjoy being alone aswell. ive never had any kind of volatile relationship and ive never had a one night stand. i just don't seem to have any of what you need to have to be bpd. i just don't understand why he has done this and said these things, but he wont see me again til a time of his choosing which he said is the end of November.
i thought about seeing a different pdoc who i would have to pay to see, altho i feel as tho my problem was probably just anxiety that got worse cos nobody would help me at first. sometimes i wonder if pdoc wanted to create some dramatic problem to ensure he still got patients?
i just don't really know what to do
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