I couldn't put it any better Feeltheburn.
Growlithing, I urge you to think everything through before you decide on anything. I know the action of suicide does not come lightly and people cannot see a way out but there is always another way, sometimes we forget about choice and the choice to live and not die and to want to live because things go away when we learn to find a way through them. I urge you to talk to your t about this, and to ask her how it affects a therapist because she will have some valuable insight, I am sure of this.

When I first entered into therapy I had a plan and I was determined to follow through that weekend after seeing ex t that weekend and I am glad I told her because she saved my life, I owe my life to her. She talked me out of it by making me feel so guilty and selfish but in the nicest possible way. I hope you can see a way out of this struggle

My ex