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Originally Posted by wotchermuggle
From someone who's attempted s. and thought about it a lot, it is hard to read what the experience is from those who are left behind to deal with it.
I have always hated when people say "think about how it would affect other people" because I think, "but what about me??", but I felt a lot of empathy for the therapist and his situation. I thought about how my therapist would have to deal with that and it made me feel sick that I've ever even tried/thought about it. I've thought about how it would affect people before, but I've always just pushed the thoughts aside because I figured I wouldn't matter. Maybe I'm just getting to that place in therapy where I feel like I do matter, so I'm thinking about the affect more?
I'm not in the midst of a depression though, and I know things look different when you're in that spot, too. It's hard to see your situation from the outside when you are depressed.
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Yeah, this is why I can't do it. I haven't attempted it, but I've gotten really close. I've set everything up and tried to talk myself into doing it, but ultimately I just imagine the people I care about finding out and I can't do it. It makes me feel horrible for thinking about it too. I haven't told her how close I've gotten yet and I'm kinda scared to.