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Originally Posted by Stringcheese
it sounds like you have some people that care about you, even if its not your family. if they lean on you for emotional support as you stated, lean on them. that's what friends are for.
i am not against suicide and believe people have the right to make that choice.. i am struggling myself. there are some people that have no-one that would care. i have no-one.
and we each have the right to end our suffering. but if you can say i have some friends as you have, let them help you. you matter to them and they matter to you. i hope you feel better.
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I am lucky that I have people. I didn't before I turned 14. I still have no clue how I managed to get through that because it was so horrible. I'm so sorry you are in that place. I really like your insights on this site and I'd miss your posts if you left. Not sure how much that means.
The problem is that I can't really talk to my friends about this stuff. It stresses them out because they so desperately want to save me from my current state but can't because they aren't equipped to do so. I need serious professional help and they are musicians, not psychologists. I try to avoid topics like suicide and my SI out of respect of their sanity.
The idea of suicide comforts me. I like the idea that no matter how bad it gets, I have the ultimate power to escape.