Hi, remember me? The person who had deep self loathing issues? I never thought my hate towards myself would ever go away.

But I have seen a lot of improvement in the past couple of weeks. I have been 'faking' confidence. Which has actually given me some real confidence. I don't necessarily love myself, but I have much less negative thoughts, I am...neutral. But I pretend to like myself a lot around friends.

I have noticed, though, that I seem to be projecting my hate onto others now. I don't hate myself as much, but I still get extremely jealous of other people. I have a few people I know who I truly hate because I am jealous of them. My partner has explained why my hate is useless and only harmful to myself, but I can't control it.

Other than that, I am happy with my progress.