Ok, I've been reading here about people terminating when their t does something wrong and people fighting the attachment issues and always thought I was lucky that I tended to talk these issues through with my t and never ended up in the same place. Now however I find myself feeling far too attached to her and cross over a very minor error on her part that normally wouldn't bother me at all.
Part of me wants to run away fast, but I often have suicidal thoughts and worry if I do this I will actually make things worse in the long run. She always tells me she cares and she can be there for me and it drives me mad as yes she can for the time of the week I am with her and in an emergency she will always ring but its not the same as being able to properly be there and she just won't agree. I've put all these thoughts in an email to her but she rarely checks her emails and since I haven't heard already it will now be Tuesday before she next checks. I know I can text but don't feel it is important enough to bother her on a weekend. I think some of this could be due to some deeper work we did last week that gave me a complete panic attack and also at the end of next week we have a break of a month.
Not sure what I am after from you folks, I think hearing how you cope or advice.