I just woke up and immediately I knew that my disability claim will be denied and that the only answer after that will be suicide. I have no idea if this is true or not, but the thoughts of suicide that come along with being BiPolar, for me, are always overwhelming. I'm somewhere between knowing I'll spend my last days Baker Acted and deciding if I should wait until my dad is gone before the deed is done.

DAMNIT. What a way to start the day!