My hallucinations get worse with stress. It did help me in the long run, being more honest about them. The scariest part was losing friends. A lot of people wish that we could just compartmentalize the voices from the normal us, so that they don't have to worry or deal with the abnormal. But we can't. For most of us, the voices are a huge part of what we are, and when other's can't accept them, it feels a lot like they can't accept us; and sometimes that is the truth, that they can't handle it. I try to forgive the ones that leave, honestly, if I could leave that part of me forever, I would too.
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God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
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