Damn it!!

I hate being in the corner of life it keeps shoving me there putting me there hating me there jamming me there in the freaking corner of LIFE!!...!!

and it's my damn fault if I do nothing about it

I keep trying!!..

but trying just aint enough

...PUT some feeling into it!

I have to take a risk everytime I want to feel something it could kill me But I understand something new everytime at the end of it!

that??

I have no control??

not exactly!

I can hurt every damn day of my life but I can feel nothing for just a few...

just so I can see what is hurting me..

welcome to mental illness...

I will stick your own stoopid head up your own *** so you can see what you shoulda' when you blink!

maybe it's possible?

not like it's necessary!

GLOOM...is so real!

MOODY is even more real an the reasons are even BIGGER!

I get around like a moron like a dis-interested fool...

like nothing can touch me like a ...

well??

it's my protection!!
how can I break out of this calamity?

...do I even want to?
I identify with misery!

and oh?

I forgot!!

I am mentally freaking ill!!

nobody else needs to no...

...first thing is to look around and be screwed!

look around and surrounded!....

everyone is better than me everyone knows better than me everyone knows everything!!

I am nothing!

pathetic!!...pointless useless...

I watch them succeed at what I fail at I watch myself fail trying to succeed!

at anything...

according to THEM!

and ever so quiet I slip through the 'security'...

...DM said it's so

so it has to be...

I'm serious!