Hi ,im really struggling with food right now ,I cant physically make myself eat and when I have to I eat and then go and make myself be sick,alots happened and is happening and its making me hate the way I look and also is messing with the way I feel too ,I am being bullied and that's making things worse.
When I am with my friends they say ,why don't you have something to eat and I say I don't want to and then they start making this joke about starving and making myself sick,they don't know whats going on and I don't think they would understand if I told them.
I feel weak right now and all I want to do is just curl up in my bed and not move ,the only thing I have energy for is exercising and that's because I know its going to help me lose weight !
Jessie xx
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